I cant believe what im seeing
Thats how you know theyve forgotten you
I was a little surprised out of all people to tell me happy birthday this weekend, you were the only one that didnt.
To long have i spent trying to convince myself that things would get better. Most of my life ive spent trying to figure out where i belong. And i still havent found it. For most people its easy, they find people they can rely on and be good to them. But for me its harder than it should be. Im never in the right place, and most of the people i know end up hurting me one way or another. Its my fault, my fault that i choose to put my faith in them hoping that maybe they are good people that would treat me the way i treat them. Im to nice to others and i let them take advantage of my generosity. I dont belong here, i dont belong anywhere really. Even the people i love end up leaving. But its my fault and theres nothing i can do. I can change the way you feel, i cant tell you to do something that you dont want to do. i cant make you come back. No, im not happy, i never was ever since ive been here. And now home is a mystery to me. Its a place where you can be happy but neither of the two homes im welcome to feel that way anymore. I just want to be gone, i dont want to be alone but thats the only way people wont be able to hurt me. I shouldnt be this way, even my birthday is in a few days but i wish i wasnt around for it. I wish that they would forget, that no one would know about me, id be better off as someone people just dont know about. Happy early birthday to me, i hope that there arent many more left.
Popped a molly im sweatin!
Can I say that this is my favorite post of all time?
•because I could really use some friends for a change•
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Nina, an Amur Tigress.
by Mark Butcher
Theres a lot i want to say to you, to talk to you, to show you that i still care just as much as i did a year ago. To show that theres nothing i want more than to still have you in my life and to be with you.
But im scared to. Im scared of you, and im scared to say the things that i really want to tell you because im terrified of what youll say. Even though i dont say the things that you sometimes say it doesnt mean that i dont care. Im just to afraid to say it.
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